I've been unemployed for the better part of 2 years now. My spirits have been higher than they've been in the last few months. I think I was still riding the waves of high from my graduation in June and most recently a move to a new city. Once the dust settled and my days started merging into one long day (or so it seems), the negative emotions begin to arise. They've been a bit stronger given the Holiday season. Sure, it's sad to not have money to buy gifts or really go out at all, but its more sad when you have no family or friends around to support you during the tough times. I've been struggling with feelings of helplessness and fear. I've come to the realization that I don't have the answers. To when a job will come for me, or my husband, or when I will see our family again. And what do I do with that?
To get through this, I do the only thing I know. I remember that the Holiday season is a time of joy, thankfulness and community. So, I find things that I'm grateful for everyday and make a list. I reach out to my community of support (even if they aren't physically present, I know I can get support through email too). I create space for fun and joy to fill my life daily.
It's all I can do and it works. I just have to remember to schedule these things in my day, each day. That helps me balance my emotional energy during this Holiday season. What are some things that you do to deal with Holiday emotions?
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